Right after losing Young
Matthew I remembered something…
In November, I had called Jenn
in TN and said I had a really bad feeling that we
were going to lose either Young Matthew or Young
Jeffrey. I told her that I didn’t feel it was going
to happen right away—that I thought it would be,
“three to six months; sometime after the new year.”
I told her I felt terrible for even thinking such a
thought, but that it had come to me quite clearly
and quite abruptly. I remember freezing when it came
to mind. And from that day forward I made sure to
hug Young Jeffrey and Young Matthew every morning
and every night—no matter how rushed I was. I made
sure to spend time with them every day, so I
wouldn’t look back later and feel I’d missed out on
that valuable time with them.
I wrote about that very
conversation with Jenn in the diary pages when we
lost Lilly on December 1st http://www.majesticwaterfowl.org/diary278.htm.
I felt awful that I had misunderstood the message
and was focusing in on the wrong ducks and had the
time-frame all wrong too. I blamed myself for this
mistake and felt really guilty about it.
And then TODAY, I was out
taking pictures of the flock and while downloading
them onto the computer… I suddenly remembered
something... I had to go back in the diary pages to
find it… I posted some of the photos there because
it was so odd…
Back on August 23rd
I commented on the odd photos I took of Young
Matthew. I called it “ghost of a duck” and noted
that the “ghost” in one of his images didn’t even
match his pose—like it was an entirely different
duck doing an entirely different thing. It only
happened on that one day, never before and never
since. I shrugged it off at the time as some kind
of trick of the light, but it only happened around
Young Matthew—no one else that day. Check it out:
http://www.majesticwaterfowl.org/diary260.htm
The message was about
Young Matthew… I dismissed it after we lost Lilly,
but I kept smothering my bo-boyz in extra hugs and
attention anyway.
...
And now photos
taken today...
Demi
Jodie-dee
Tricia
Young Jeffrey
